Zoe’s Journal

It’s a good thing I got my three bite-size candy bars done with - the entire grocery shopping bag is completely gone now. My first experience of handing out candy for Halloween has happened!

And I don’t know. I haven’t been feeling like updating often. Maybe I’m going on a burn-out, but at the same time, I feel more creative than ever, and I want to write! But the things I want to write aren’t for a blog. At least, not this one. I feel so random, my mind is going in crazy, ever-widening circles… I’ve been getting sleep, but I’m still tired. The LotR says I’m going crazy. Maybe I am. I’ve been kind of bored lately. It might be because my classes are over, but I’ve been working on LOMA courses during lunch at work, so my mind isn’t being neglected. Maybe it’s the lack of structure in the evenings. When I just sit down to play games or explore the web. I’ve been reading every night, too. I have so many books to go through. But I don’t feel like reading or playing games right now. Or watching movies or cleaning house, or playing the keyboard. I don’t have a story in mind to write, but I feel the need to. The almost primal urge to get my feelings out on paper. The need to express. I haven’t really done that in a long time. Maybe I will. But when I say I will, I won’t. So don’t expect anything.

By the way, I have been working on my zoesfantasy site - instead of being just book reviews, I added a category for my own rough writings. Don’t check it out yet, though. I need a new, more intuitive layout. But I don’t want to work on that now. Maybe I’ll go to sleep, though it’s only 8:30.

The LotR just showed me this fabulously hilarious video.

The LotR and I went tonight to a video-game themed Halloween party hosted by his friends at Flashbang Studios. We all got to dress up like video game characters, and it was fun (especially after a few drinks...)! Here are the pictures (again, click for larger size).

Princess Peach & Nintendo Block Matthew (punch him, he gives out candy!)

Wario!

Dead Rising hero (Cory) & Zombie (Shawn)

Ghostbuster Dan & Yuna (me)

Hahahaha.

Guitar Hero gal & Zombie

Ghostbusters!

Princess Peach & Wario

Too much going on here to say.

There has been one particular phrase that has bothered me for several years
now, ever since my first office job when I was eighteen. Back then, I sat
next to an uber-religious woman who played gospel music all day, and signed
all of her letters (which printed on the department printer) with a ‘God
Bless, Wendy’ Then she actually printed Bible verse references (like
Malachi 3:37)! See, that just doesn’t make sense. First of all, who can
make a god bless anyone? Secondly, and this is the point that rankles, it’s
supposed to be ‘God Bless You’. Why do so many people leave the ‘You’ off?
It makes no sense otherwise! Besides, it bothered my atheist sensibilities
to see that phrase, and stupid bible verses dozens of times a day near the
printer during work. It’s just not professional to expose your religious
views to clients all across the country, who may or may not take offense.
To make my point, one day I wrote a faux letter, and signed it ‘May Buddha
shine his face upon you’. Of course, my supervisor saw it, and called me
over for a ‘talk’. I told her my point, and she had a talk with the ‘god
bless’ lady. The bible verses came off, but the ‘god bless’ stayed. I
rested my case. There is such a thing as pushing things too far. But now! I
keep hearing the goddamn phrase wherever I go! ‘God bless’. No ‘god bless
YOU’, just ‘god bless’. ooooo. This frustrates me so badly. Today, I got to
a voicemail from a lady in, of all places, North Carolina. Her take on the
phrase was ‘Have a god bless day.’ What?! Grammar, folks! If one has to
even to say something so unprofessionally religious, then at least say it
right! “have a god blessed day!” Again, I don’t know where folks get off
with handing out blessings from god, but that’s not the point.

This morning, my alarm clock failed to go off in time for work. I vaguely remember waking myself at exactly 6:45, then going back to sleep, thinking that the LotR had hit the snooze button. He hadn’t.

During my sleep after that, I had a vivid dream about my little sisters getting into a fight and cutting their fingers and backs with a knife. Of course, it was completely by accident. All 27 of them. They had to go to the doctor, who stitched them all up. I was in some kind of cavern (the Drag in Orgrimmar, for those who know), riding a moped, stopping by a drive-through Starbucks (literally, I drove my moped through the middle of the shop, like it was a tunnel Starbucks or something), racing along to the doctor to see them. I arrived all prepared to lecture them on the dangers of sharp edges. They were happily sitting at a wooden table, with bandages on their hands, and stitched scratches, with about 4 varieties of snacks, which they kept eating. They kept eating and eating, and I couldn’t stop them! I wrapped up all the packages and started lecturing again, when their hands just crept into the packaging to grab more cookies.

It was a very disturbing dream, and I woke up disheveledly [is that a word?] when the LotR sat up to peer at the clock. It read 7:37. I normally leave the house around 8:00. I dashed into the shower, grabbed some clothes, and made it out in time. Alas, I wasn’t able to dry my hair beyond a cursory hand job, and it was limp and straggly all day. *sigh*

Last night I finished my very first Anne McCaffrey book. It was really weird, but turned out okay in the end. I dunno, it just seemed that she uses magic too much to solve problems. All of a sudden, not only can dragons go to any place in the blink of an eye, they can now go back in time, even to 400 years ago! And that is why the world is in such a state, because sometime in the future, they went back in time to the present day, to tell the people there to go to the future and wait for them! What?! yeah. Like I said, it somehow turned out okay… and it wasn’t all desolate reading. The characters were good (could be a little more in-depth and complex, in my opinion). I also think she could have explained things better. Suddenly, in the same paragraph, the characters nonchalantly drop a phrase about going back to a certain city, then they are there, leaving the reader to wonder how they got there in mid-paragraph. And someone came into the room, exchanged greetings, then sipped his glass of wine. I presume the wine was poured by the host? I dunno. It was kind of confusing, and I think she could have written a little better. This really should have been a book review on my zoesfantasy site. Sorry. I’ll copy/paste it later, lol.

So I guess that’s all that is going on here.